Jenn/ Jeff

I’m 13 and I’m a tomboy nerd. Okay. 98% tomboy! I have hair that ends at my shoulders (I HATE IT SO MUCH.) and… I’m the cleanest freak. A lazy clean freak. I haven’t told my family yet and I’m very strong with what I think. But I don’t have the guts to say it. When i do, I always get shoved down into the pit of despair. That just gets rid of my confidence. My only confidence: internet and my lucky parka. I can’t get a binder because I haven’t told my family I’m a tomboy. I hate my boobs. I lost all of my confidence that was in me from them.and my boobs are HUGE for my age. I don’t want them. I just want to get breast reduction surgery and be flat. I haven’t been breathing the same and red sores, scratches, etc have been appearing on them. I consulted my mum, she declined. I’m not accepted for who I am. My English teacher likes to send kids out by gender. When he says boys first I stand up and what I guess you can call the Queen Bee of middle school grabbed my hoodie and shoved me to the ground. But I usually just try to ignore her. No one believes me and no one helps me. Not even the English Teacher. Not even the school counselor. I can’t move or contact police because there’s no home phones, and I don’t have a phone.okay, maybe I do but I’m afraid of calling the cops.i’m also atheist and the popular kids are Christian so I’m a natural target for a game of:”WHO CREATED THIS” They once wrote on my locker: “gay,lesbian, freak,b*tch” it hurt so much. I can’t erase it off, it was written in permanent and I got detention. I won’t commit suicide, because I have an ambition. But I’m a tomboy, and I’m proud. I’m a excellent swimmer and I love video games, or tech in general. I just want to be known as a man. I refer to myself as man, and I’m going to be known as man.

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5 thoughts on “Jenn/ Jeff

  1. Hi! I am in the exact same situation! Point : DO NOT USE DUCT TAPE AS A MAKESHIFT BINDER IT MAKES YOU BLEED!!! Trust me, try and find a first aid box and use some bandages from thqt

  2. You know what, you sound just like me πŸ™‚ I know how to get you a binder if you wait until March. Check MORF Binders. They give them out for free as long as you pay shipping. If you’re in the US then just google “free binder trans” it should come up. I’ve ordered one and its coming next month. I thought it was strange that other tomboys hated their boobs, I thought we were meant to be comfortable with being a girl. I suppose that’s until puberty starts. Comment back and I will give you my email so we can stay in touch. Tomboys have to stick together because at the end of the day, only we know each other’s problems.

  3. Okay when I was reading your story I understood it all. I am a tomboy also and I love it. Im not scared of wearing “boy clothes” and liking “boy things”. But, what I hate about all this is that there is a difference between “boy clothes” and “girl clothes”. Why can’t they be the same? Why can’t they just be called “clothes”? My second point is that you are a wonderful human being and I say this with all honesty. Also those people who called themselves “Christians” but would talk to you like that and treat you like that are NOT (I REPEAT NOT) CHRISTIAN” AGAIN I REPEAT THEY ARE NOT CHRISTIAN! Don’t view every christian like that because they are NOT christian. I would know. I am christian and I would NEVER treat you or anyone else like that because I think everyone was created to be who they are and God will love you forever and ever for WHO YOU ARE! God will always be silently beside you watching out for you since you are his child. I hope you understand that you are who you are and God and I love you for that!

  4. I don’t doubt your love for guy stuff, but if you want to be a man, and refer to yourself as one you may be a transgender- someone who’s physical gender doesn’t match up with their mental gender ( don’t get confused, a tomboy is different from a transgender) I’m not trying to be offensive I only bring this up because of the way you describe your situation.

  5. Hey, everybody’s different in their own rights and laws.πŸš•πŸš‘πŸš™πŸ‡―πŸ‡΅πŸ‡ΊπŸ‡ΈπŸ‡¬πŸ‡§πŸ‘•πŸ‘–πŸ‘”πŸ”¨πŸ”«πŸ“•πŸ“—πŸ“˜πŸ“™πŸ“΅πŸšΉπŸšΊπŸšΌ

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